&& lost.in a :: f e b r u a r y_song. ][Haley][

[James Potter]

'What's up with me lately? I'm even beginning to weird myself out.'

So went the almost absentminded thoughts of one James Potter as he continued walking. He had no idea where exactly he was going, or even why. It was just another part of the strange mood he'd been in lately; mostly normal, but oddly distant and quiet at times. Very unlike him.

Slowly, he stopped, temporarily unsure of where exactly he was or why exactly he'd went there. Blinking a bit in surprise, as if just coming out of a daze, James looked around to find that he was standing rather oddly in the middle of Greenhouse Number 3. A small smile tugged at his lips as hazel eyes flitted around, finally coming to rest on a small daisy growing rather pathetically on the ground in front of him, amidst all the other, exotic plants. He knelt down to pluck it gently out of the dirt and twirled it about between his thumb and index finger.

'Pretty,' he mused, watching the creamy white petals spin delicately before him. 'Maybe I could give it to Lily...'

It was then that the opening of the greenhouse door turned his head. He straightened, still holding onto the daisy, and feeling just a tad stupid. James Potter, alone in the greenhouse, holding a daisy. Ridiculous.

[Haley Seay]

Haley walked along the greenhouses with the sun in her hair. She thought of everything she had been thought the last six years. All that was gained and lost all the friends she had made and the pain she felt that her mother and father were gone and didn't care about her. She was now Seventeen and trying to become a teacher.

She took out her wand and wanted to learn about so much about magic and now it was over. She still wanted to have fun and many of her friends were sad that she was leaving. She had been going to The Shrieking Shack for the last few weeks. She heard something in Green house 3 and pushed the door open and saw him. "Jaaaaames!" She said with a smile on her face as she saw the Daisy in his hand.

"Is that for miss. Lily?" She said with a little jeer at him. She looked at it with a great grin. Haley looked at him for a bit and than at the ground. She looked at him with a smile as he just stood there and gave a little sigh. " Don't make me use my Magic on you!" She said with a little laugh as she walked over to him. She wanted to make him laugh as she thought of the first time she flew on her broom in front of him.

"Hey you know what flying is awesome, it's the landing part that's a bitch!" She said with a smile on her face and got stood in front of him as she looked at him. "James is something wrong?" She said as she as she looked at her best friend. Haley looked around and wounder why he was in a greenhouse. "Why are you here?" She asked with a confused look on her face.

[James Potter]

"Jaaaaames!"

James suddenly seemed to crash back into reality, jolting a bit and nearly dropping the daisy. Giving his friend a somewhat sheepish smile, he wasted no time in grabbing her up into a giant bear hug. "Haaaaaley!" he mirrored with a light laugh, lifting her up briefly before placing her back down on her feet. "How's my favorite Ravenclaw?"

"Is that for miss. Lily?"

Instantly, James's cheeks dusted a light shade of pink. "I, um, well... I was thinking about giving it to her, I mean, well..." He sighed lightly in defeat and sat down on one of the nearby benches, looking down sadly at the daisy. "Girls like flowers, right?" It was true that, in Gryffindor, the two biggest hotshots were James Potter and Sirius Black. They could pretty much get any girl they wanted, but unlike Sirius, James wasn't very female-savvy. Plus, it didn't help to be hot and popular when the only girl you wanted thought you were a toe rag.

"Hey you know what flying is awesome, it's the landing part that's a bitch!"

James gave her a wide grin and placed a hand on her shoulder. "And you know I am quite proud of you for flying all by yourself." he teased lightly with a wink. "You're growing up too fast."

"James is something wrong? Why are you here?"

James averted his eyes a bit, still holding the daisy in his free hand. "Dunno." he answered truthfully. "Just... for some reason felt like skipping lunch and going to the... greenhouse." Realizing, of course, how stupid that sounded only after he'd said it.

[Haley Seay]

Haley gave a small nod to him. " Well yes girls like flowers James." She said as she looked at him. She saw the pinkness in his cheeks. " Oh me I am great a little side tracked is all." She said a she threw her hair out of her face as she looked at him with a smile at the part about growing up so fast. She looked at him with a great sigh and she titled her head to the side.

Haley took a long breath and let it out she looked at him as he gave him a small nudged and looked at him. "James don't give up Lily is your raison d'etre." She said with little encouragement. "Just keep up your fight for Love." She said with a different tone with the word love. She forgot it was lunch all together she still had a few more classes after this. She ran her fingers in her hair.

"I am here to help and thats what I am going to do so talk." She said as she let her eyes wounder to all the plants." Haley looked at James untidy hair and glasses. She pulled her wand out and pointed it at the door. She opened her mouth. "Slavio Hexia...Protego Totalum...Muffliato." She said as she looked at James with a smile on her face.

"OK talk James." She said with a sigh as she looked at him with a smile on her face. She wanted to help it. "Now start to talk or I'll will start casting on you Mister." She said with a eye and shut up to let him talk. She waited for him to look at her or do something.

[James Potter]

"James don't give up Lily is your raison d'etre." She said with little encouragement. "Just keep up your fight for Love."

James looked up at his friend with a small smile, still feeling a bit timid about his feelings for Lily. He still spun the flower, delicately between his fingers. "Thanks, Hal." he said, his smile brightening a bit as he gently patted her on the knee. "You're the best."

"I am here to help and thats what I am going to do so talk. Slavio Hexia...Protego Totalum...Muffliato."

James blinked a bit in surprise as the rush of magic enveloped both of them. Passing her a wry grin, he placed the daisy on a nearby shelf where it wouldn't be harmed and stood up, looking down on the girl. "If I didn't know you better I'd think you were trying to keep me all to yourself." he teased with a wry grin, giving a wink to let her know it was a joke.

"OK talk James. Now start to talk or I'll will start casting on you Mister."

Gulping loudly, James sat back down obediently and pulled his friend to sit beside him, one hand rested lightly on her knee, a sign of friendship and trust. "I will do as you request, my dear, simply because you terrify me and I trust you." he said with a grin, but his expression sombered a bit as he looked at her. "Well, Miss Seay, it appears that James Potter is in love with Lily Evans. What say you?"

[Haley Seay]

" I say what is holding you back?" She said with a said with a sad tone." In the six years I have known you, you have never acted like this." Haley stopped for a moment."It seems to me that if you must truly and deeply love her." Haley said as she turned on her heart." I know that I am not one to talk about love cause I know nothing of it." Haley looked into his eyes and smile." But I have seen the way you two have looked at each other so try small things." Haley looked at him with a soft but warming smile on her face.

" If I didn't know you better I'd think you were trying to keep me all to yourself."

" Oh yeah James I want you all to myself." She wanted to give him hope." They say that life is a journey but if it is, the real question isn't where you going, it's who's coming with you." She smiled at him and looked at the flower. "She'll love the flower trust me." She said as she messed with his hair. " So now that we have played love connection lets move on to another topic." She smiled at him as she popped her finger.

Haley looked at the ground with a sudden lack of warmth and knew that even though she love seeing her friends find love that she herself have never loved at all. She felt that her life was empty that love was not in the cards. Haley had know that for a time but suppressed it hoping that not only love would come to her but maybe her parents. The people that had given her up to live their lives without her. For it was Haley that her brother Dean had died. Her fault sister Carley had run off and got herself killed by a psycho. Haley just wanted James to be happy was all and maybe one day she would be too.

Haley looked back at her friend she knew all would work out for him in the end. She looked at him and gave him her fake smile but who was she fooling she was just a smiling face in a make-believe world. She hoped that James couldn't read her like he always could. She would have to do some soul searching after the year was over. Haley with her wand in hand waved it in her hand and casted the Orchideous charm as flowers came out the end of her wand. She smiled at them as she looked at James the sight of them made her turly happy.

[James Potter]

"I say what is holding you back? In the six years I have known you, you have never acted like this." Haley stopped for a moment."It seems to me that if you must truly and deeply love her." Haley said as she turned on her heart." I know that I am not one to talk about love cause I know nothing of it." Haley looked into his eyes and smile." But I have seen the way you two have looked at each other so try small things."

By the time she was finished, James knew he was blushing lightly. Damn, Haley could read him like a book! Almost as much as Sirius and Remus could, and taht scared him a little. But then the fear ebbed away and he smiled at her, leaning down to gently kiss her on the cheek. "Thanks." he said honestly. "It means a lot to me that you're here for me. And one day, some big 'ole handsome guy is going to run up and sweep you off your feet, and I am going to have to threaten him." he gave her a cheeky grin. "You deserve lots and lots of love, Haley."

" Oh yeah James I want you all to myself." She wanted to give him hope." They say that life is a journey but if it is, the real question isn't where you going, it's who's coming with you." She smiled at him and looked at the flower. "She'll love the flower trust me." She said as she messed with his hair. " So now that we have played love connection lets move on to another topic."

James simply grinned fondly at her as she ruffled his hair; he did it himself so much it was hardly ever neatly combed anymore. "Fine by me."

He watched, in silent amazement as she cast the spell to make the flowers grow. The simplicity of the action made him smile, and he draped an arm around her shoulders. "Something's bugging you." he said with a light frown, he could feel how tense she was when he came in contact with her. "What is it?"

[Haley Seay]

"Something's bugging you." he said with a light frown, he could feel how tense she was when he came in contact with her. "What is it?"

Haley looked at him with a small smile as she looked at him. " Its nothing James you don't always have to be my night and shining Gryffindor." She said softly as she looked at the flowers and picked one up and smelled it she let the flower drop to the ground and had a flash of how she was feeling. Falling to the ground as if she would hit it soon." Ever get the feeling that you are falling into nothing and there is no to stop it." Haley said as she looked at the boy who she had known from her second year." Its like you have been walking in the dark and fell over the side of the staris and you can't stop yourself." She let it out a little with little more than a wisper. " Thats what I feel like right now." She looked at James with a soft smlie.

Haley let her mouth shut up for a while as she looked at her hands and back at James. " Its just the plain fact that my parents left me as a baby to be raise by muggles and after dumby found me I found out that my parents thought that I was the problem of all their problems both my brother and sister being killed and now my time is up and I have to face the world by myself." Haley said with all one breath it was a fact she was mesed up but now james knew how much. She pushed her hair out of her face and started to cry a bit as she sat there next to him. She was hurting and her heart was breaking. She had no one to help her when she left. IT was alomst the same as the night with Ripley. She looked at James and sighed.

[James Potter]

" Its nothing James you don't always have to be my night and shining Gryffindor."

James gave her a light smile, but inwardly he was concerned with what cold make her seem to melancholy. "But I am your knight in shining Gryffindor." he protested, giving her a small nudge.

"Ever get the feeling that you are falling into nothing and there is no to stop it." Haley said as she looked at the boy who she had known from her second year." Its like you have been walking in the dark and fell over the side of the staris and you can't stop yourself." She let it out a little with little more than a wisper. " Thats what I feel like right now."

James's father's face instantly flashed into his mind, pulling sudden heartache out of the surface, beneath which it had been oh-so carefully stowed away. Swallowing loudly, he focused on her to hide the pain. "Of course." he murmured, moving his thumb over her shoulder in a comforting gesture.

" Its just the plain fact that my parents left me as a baby to be raise by muggles and after dumby found me I found out that my parents thought that I was the problem of all their problems both my brother and sister being killed and now my time is up and I have to face the world by myself."

James pulled her closer to him and shushed her, kissing her temple gently in an attemtpt to calm her. His thumb was still gently moving over her shoulder, hoping to reassure her. "You're not alone, Haley." he vowed softly. "You've got me, and the guys, and Ripley and Lily, and I'm sure Dumbeledore won't let you go until you're ready."