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Post by Remus Lupin on Jun 9, 2007 19:43:34 GMT -5
x x x.x.x.x.x Remus frowned as he stopped slowly in his tracks, the soft crunching of the grass no longer heard. Great. He just had to walk this way, but it was automatic now where his footsteps would take him. Either the common room, the Great Hall, The Library, or the Whomping Willow. Now he stood in the courtyards, only about 50 yards away from the Willow, having stopped before he realized where he was. Ironic, for it was only a quarter moon tonight. Remus checked the moon charts regularly, saying it was Astronomy homework if anybody asked. The full moon wasn't due for a while and thank god for that. With a sight he gave the piece of nature one last glance before turning around and heading in an opposite direction. The breeze was light and it ruffled his wavy hair, pushing them into his midnight blue pools for eyes. His cloak was over his school uniform, with his shirt meticulously tucked in as always but his tie a little loose. The Autumn was creeping in and quickly, you could hear it in the breeze or as you walked among the fallen leaves. The courtyards of Hogwarts provided a nice place for an evening walk, though Remus now avoided late night walks like the plague for fear of any negative consequences. Detention wasn't all that bad though he did not prefer it, unlike his two friends James and Sirius who seemed to live the Detention nightlife. No, Remus was the studious type, who stayed out of trouble and was almost painfully shy at times. It's not like he wasn't interested in girls, he was, just not openly as James with Lily or Sirius with the other half of the student female population. As far as he remembered there had been maybe only one or two relationships in his life and those had been short lived for one reason or another. So for now he stayed happily single because he didn't even feel human half the time. What right did he have mingling among normal students? Here he goes again. When Remus gets a chance to think about himself and his life it quickly turns to the glass is frightfully empty. Remus continued on his little walk, thinking to himself like normal, until he heard some leaves rustling behind him. Stopping he turned around to have a look.
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Post by Lily Evans on Jun 24, 2007 0:59:24 GMT -5
The young Gryffindor redhead made her way out to the ground just as the clock was striking four, it was amazing for the afternoon was passing by so quickly as the season changed into one that suited her better, she had always found herself enjoying the winter more then summer, the heat was always so unbearable and the humidity was a killer. At least this afternoon she was comfortable, of course, still clad in her Hogwarts uniform since dinner had yet to take place, then again she didn't dislike the uniform. It had it's ups she supposed. It kept everyone equal. Okay she didn't exactly believe that anything was equal in the school you have Potter's little group of delinquents and then the more then shady Slytherin's. It was always an interesting mixture. The black heels she wore sinked into the ground beneath her as she moved through the slight crowd of people standing about.
Lily gave a small hello and how are you to her friends as she walked by, not really stopping to chat, she had uncomfortable written all over her face. Not only had she been avoiding all the people she usually spoke to, she was avoiding teachers, anyone. It just didn't matter, she was technically dislodging herself from the student body of Hogwarts. The sleek haired girl looked up from the ground to see an unfamiliar sight, the whomping willow was close by and someone was standing near it, well not extremely close but just enough to make her worry about possible safety. The leaves beneath her feet crunched down gently as she made her way closer. This seemed to alert the person because he turned briskly, looking at her with the familiar pools of blue that were so easy to fall into. Well, they would have been easy to fall into if she was any other girl.
"Remus." With a true smile she walked closer to where he stood. They were close, some could say too close but then again nothing had transpired between the two, instead his best mate was one of her annoyances. How was it that such a sweet boy like Remus Lupin ended up around James Potter and his horrid little friends? That would be one question that she would dream of the answer to for years, one that she had dreamed of the answer to but it all lead to the same answer. They were Gryffindors, they were all meant to stick together, house unity and all that riff. As the space between the pair grew smaller she closed the gap by pressing her lips to his cheek and her hands enveloping him into a sound hug. Lily could entrust him with just about anything. Her hands slipped down and off of his body landing by her sides while she looked happily up to him. "Tell me, where have you been hiding, it feels like I haven't seen you in ages." Though they saw each other at breakfast it just felt like forever, maybe it was the long drawn out classes (even though they shared two of those also) that made her feel so alone. "Okay maybe I am slightly overreacting."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Jul 2, 2007 23:43:27 GMT -5
Standing so close to the Whomping Willow would make anybody nervous or scared out of their shoes to say the least. But as he feared such simple things as the moon, or a full one at that, he'd rather stand here near the treacherous plant they were warned against. It was only used as his cover once a month, and yet nobody seamed to realize the lack of a sound explanation at this trees existence. Remus certainly wasn't about to ask for he knew the answer very well and it stuck in the back of his mind all the time with other little issues he would dwell upon.
Remus took a few steps away from the tree when he saw who had caught his attention. His heart seamed to leap in his chest at the sight of red hair and bright pools of green. A face that always brought a smile to his. She was one of the few friends he had outside of his little pack with James, Sirius and Peter but none of them would dare tease or James would blow a fuse about it. Still he maintained his sensible friendship with her, she was somebody he could trust, with most things. They greeted with a hug a she kissed his cheek. Remus should have stopped blushing at that long ago, now he hardly felt the pink on his cheeks as he grew accustomed to it.
"I've been around. I could say the same for you." He answered, knowing very well that their last conversation had been at breakfast while James attempted to launch sausages at expecting first years. Yes, you could say he was mature for his age in a way. He just shrugged slightly, taking a second to look her over. "You alright?" He said a few seconds later, noting the look on her face behind the happiness to have bumped into him. Remus knew usually when something was up, he was good at hiding his feelings, so why not figure out other's in the meantime. Maybe she would tell him, if not that was fine too, he wanted to help.
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Post by Lily Evans on Jul 3, 2007 18:22:21 GMT -5
"I know, it's just I missed you. Considering how your terrible little friends gawk at me whenever I try to speak to you." Most of the time she was okay with those odd looks that went her way but sometimes it bothered her more then other times. It was the whole tension between her and them, sometimes it was easy to agree with them because going against them was like going against the leaders of Gryffindor. Of course his question stunned her a bit. Was she alright? Hum- was she really that easy to see though. Something was wrong, maybe it was just something about her that set it off, something that he could only see. It figured, he had always been the one seeing right through her facade. The red head shrugged her petite shoulders before trying to think of an appropriate answer.
"Yes, everything is fine, Remus. I just had a long day is all." Yes a long day that felt like it was never going to end. Her month was just getting more and more interesting. After what happened in the Potions room with her and James, not to mention what the Head Girl was doing Lily's whole sense of self was lost among an array of mixed emotions. Emotions that a girl her age shouldn't have been dealing with. The more that she saw them the more she couldn't stand the heat she felt that fatigue of desire. Gah- Lily was becoming a girl and it was frightening her. Yuck, emotions and towards that brute of all people.
"Have you ever had feelings for a person that was just completely not right for you? Someone so irritating at time you could just kill him, or her in your case, love." Lily was trying to make her point, when making the chocking hand gesture when she said the word 'kill' but returned to her regular self when she addressed him. Taking his hand into hers she walked them to a more safe distance from the tree that invoked fear in the Gryffindor girl. "I mean he just kills me. Everything that he does is horribly wrong or crude, or just plain mean..."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Jul 3, 2007 23:14:03 GMT -5
Remus smirked at her comment. Good to know he was missed by some people, he was the type to become easily overlooked in all places except academically. At least he figured it because he could have a crush and not do anything about it. Not exactly a fear just an uncomfortable area whereas James and Sirius lived in that zone. He noticed the pause in between his question and her response, so far just a shrug from her end, probably thinking of a lie he would uncover or just the right words to help him understand whatever predicament she may be in.
It was just one of those days where the clock taunted you by ticking slower and you didn't look forward to anything you usually did. None of his friends noticed whenever he was under the weather unless they had a calendar with unusually large letters in front of them pointing to the full moon night. Then they might have gotten the hint, well if it was in really really big letters. So since he was so quite he developed a habit of watching people and telling when things weren't in their place. It was really nearing that time of the month again, but this wasn't about him at the moment. It never was.
Remus thought about her question and answered it to himself. Yes. Sort of. Well not exactly, not right for him, but nearly impossible without losing in the end. And no, because he didn't want to kill anybody. "Well I can't say I wanted to kill her..." He thought outloud, getting the point but unable to relate. The moved away from the tree that he'd momentarily forgotten about, sometimes it was scary how comfortable he could be around the treacherous thing. "Care to share who? and why if you have to." The why was just a precaution incase it really did not make sense.
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Post by Lily Evans on Jul 14, 2007 14:03:18 GMT -5
"Why he is even registering on my radar is an amazing question that even I don't know the answer to. I mean, how can a person be so awful and yet so-- I don't know catching at the same time. It all started because of those bloody Slytherin having it off in the Potions classroom, I mean why then and there? If they haven't went and ruined everything then maybe it would still be normal and maybe life would still be regular." Lily let her shoulders shrug down, she was still avoiding the question of who mainly because she wished with everything in her gut that he was no the who driving her utterly mad. He had nothing that she couldn't find in at least twenty other sideways guys. "Then the damn things that happened in the Potions closet. I feel so pathetically unaware of what is even happening to myself."
"Wait, you have a her and haven't told me about it, what kind of mad world is this where you haven't even told me about this girl that you have found? I am shocked." Well not really shocked, it wasn't like they often told each other about their personal lives, just about everything else which was nice and rather comforting at times. Lily pulled the bag from over her shoulder and set it down on the grass, she quickly followed suite in this by sitting down beside it, usually she would have pulled him down onto the grass with her just because she was that kind of person but instead decided he could make his own decision about whether or not to sit beside her. Not that it matter since her and Remus were just friends, close friends. It had gotten to her how even she wanted to act on whatever had between between them, now there was the whole issue with whatever was between him and Ripley. Geez, talk about the unheard of drama.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Jul 14, 2007 14:15:14 GMT -5
Remus almost found it amusing how she could go on explaining something but not who it was about. It made him oddly curious and his first instinct was to tell James. But then he thought about it, no he wouldn't, he couldn't then Lily would know who told him. Being best friends made it sort of obvious. Still while listening he couldn't help but thing if it was a Slytherin, interesting and kind of odd at the same time. Then again it reminded him of his own problems, the fight with Ripley in the Common Room and everything, there was a small pain of guilt in his chest but he he ignored it for now.
Remus only smiled sheepily and followed her to where she sat, taking a seat across from her. The "her" he had been reffering to was none other that the person in front of him, and he didn't exactly want to admit that. There were many factors preventing him from doing so, the likelyhood that his best friend would kill him with a silver bullet or his other best frieind never speaking to him again, not that she was. "I don't know, I think i've gotten over it." He thought anyway. "But on the other hand, I was wondering if you could help me with something. Ripley has been acting a bit off lately." [/u]Not odd but just her admittance, it had him thinking. Who else knew? [/blockquote][/center]
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Post by Lily Evans on Jul 25, 2007 23:53:33 GMT -5
Bumping her shoulder to his arm she smirked. "Well, that girl really missed out on a grade A guy, no one in this school is quit as awe striking and intelligent like you, Remus. In fact, I think I may have to rumple you up a bit," Her beaming eyes held her smile as she jumped over on top of him, letting them roll in the grass, of course it seemed to be a bit out of character for two very well put together people but why not, it was all in good fun. Then again, there were times where she didn't think that just friends was a good word for them. Something had always been there, maybe a bit of attraction. His stride and her wit. it was just so-- easy, in fact if they ever had gotten together it would have been memorable, in fact it would have probably been something that only perfect couples could be. Then again, that very fact kept her away (not to mention Potter), what would happen if all the perfection would just be too much perfection. Flawed things were what would make a relationship strong. Why was she even thinking about this while laughing and rolling about with one of her best mates?
Maybe it was closure in her mind.
Her hair was just about everywhere. "Ripley?" Lily tried to seem as shocked as ever but that was rather hard to do considering that she knew far to much when it came to the two Gryffindors. Remus always seemed so oblivious to it while Ripley spent so many night crying her heart out about the sweet boy that never seemed to notice her. Lily was sure he noticed, maybe he just didn't want to see what was so laid out before him. Placing her weight onto her elbows she pulled her hair into a ponytail so that it wouldn't smoother the boy beneath her on the ground. Their robes were probably covered in grass stains, but still, she thought it was worth it. Blowing her bangs out of her face she frowned down to her male counterpart. "What do you think I can do?" Talk to her was the first thought that came to her mind. Yeah, talk to Ripley, and say what exactly. Please stop being so obvious, Remus is beginning to notice. For some reason he doubted that would hold the other girls emotions at bay.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Jul 26, 2007 2:03:10 GMT -5
Remus just looked at Lily and then at the ground in front of him, a smile forming as she spoke. If only she knew that the girl he spoke about was her. The good thing with them was that they had not problem complimenting each other like that without embarrassment of any type. He knew they flirted and didn't get flustered because he didn't do that with all girls. Before he could prepare himsel for speak for that matter, she had jumped on him, forcing them to roll around in the grass a little bit. Yes it was childish, but it was sure fun. The only thing that was stopping Remus from pursuing his little crush and the spark they apparently had was James.
As they finally stopped she stayed on top of him. Their surrounds took no notice as trees surrounding them, which provided for cover should anybody walk by. He didn't mind their questionable position at all, quit used to it by now, though it hardly lead anywhere. He nodded his head, while looking into her emerald green eyes that gleamed with a bit of mischief in the making. "It's just that, she told me that she likes me." He started, laying his hands on his upper body, if it weren't for Lily leaning on her elbows then it would have been quite odd. "And she got upset because of something with me and one of our friends, and she seems to have given up, but I feel bad, even if good things have come out of this." He said explaining it.
Yes he wasn't single anymore, but it was all so complicated at the same time. "I don't know if you know about me and Delilah, do you? I mean, what happened."
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Post by Lily Evans on Aug 11, 2007 1:33:25 GMT -5
"Yes, I know that she is upset and all, what girl wouldn't be? I mean years of pinning just to know that you never noticed. Not even a little..." Lily looked down to the boy who usually had no clue yet was the smartest of the bunch. "It's hard for a girl to deal with that kind of heart break." Not that she knew by experience but though Ripley was a strong girl and could hold her composure in front of people, after the curtains were closed to her bed at night things were never as happy. Either it would be dead silent or there would be small cries, it had gotten better Lily supposed but not to much better. "I don't know what to say to her anymore... I want to make it better but I don't know how. I've never had such a boy problem." Except for with Severs but that was a secret problem, one that she hoped would one day be resolved through owl or maybe even a face to face meeting if he could restrain from calling her such nasty names.
"Of course I know what happened, Remus. I might be a bit blind to most things but never to that. It's easy to tell when your glowing and having eye-sex with someone when I am trying to discuss potions with you. I hope that with all that shagging you don't flake out on me... studying is still important." Maybe Lily didn't really want to speak about what happened with Delilah. Okay, she was interested but not for good reasons, not for good friendship reasons so avoiding the subject seemed to be the easiest thing for her to do without causing herself to feel like an idiot. She had her own special someone, no need to trouble herself with another person problems... then again he was one of her best mates. She was meant to trouble herself with his problems.
"If you want to talk about it or what not... I'm all ears." Lily didn't want to hear shagging details of course but she was sure Remus would get that. Lily wasn't exactly able to give such sexual advice. Ha. Sexual advice. That thought almost made her laugh. "About the relationship part, minus the shagging..."
sorry for the wait I can be such a lame-o.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Aug 11, 2007 1:49:03 GMT -5
[[ haha, its cool ]]
Remus let out a small sigh, great another one putting him on a guilt trip, just what he needed. But he didn't say anything, just wanting that out of his brain. It wasn't his fault of relationships and all that jazz wasn't his most knowledgeable or experienced in that area. Really ending up with Delilah had been just a late consequence of getting drunk with her in the first place. But as his blue eyes looked up at the trees overhead for a moment, he just didn't want to think about Ripley, there wasn't much he could anymore to help her, it would be too weird. "What, you don't consider James a boy problem?" Well it wasn't a problem, just playing hard to get in her case.
Remus had to stop from laughing suddenly, she put it in a different way. "Relax. I figured out how to make good use of the library, don't worry." He responded, a slight grin on his face. Now he really knew that he'd been around Sirius too long. But it wasn't his fault if she made him happy, now that Remus was pretty much taken care of they just needed to work on dear old James on the other end. Having him grow up, actually acting sixteen and not twelve for once.
"No, I guess this will be the first and only time I thank James and Sirius for getting me drunk and shoving me into the first female they happened to see also smashed." He commented lightly, it wasn't that big of a deal anymore, though only few took it to heart anymore. "I figured as much. But enough about me, what about you?" This of course was referring to James. So much for homework, it didn't even matter that they were in this almost peculiar position, they didn't seem to notice.
[ I love having muse AND insomnia at the same time ^^]
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Post by Lily Evans on Aug 11, 2007 2:12:02 GMT -5
Lily appreciated him dropping the subject of Ripley, it made the redhead a fair bit uncomfortable after everything that had happened. "Potter is not a boy problem so much as a boy solution." Yes, James was more then useful for when other people lurked around her, just one mean glare from James Potter and they weren't sticking around for to long, sure she had one secret boyfriend from ravenclaw but that didn't last long, mainly because of that nosy Gryffindor that she couldn't help thinking about even as she held another person hand. Then again ever since the bathroom, well James and her were a secret so far, it was suppose to build suspense. Sure it wasn't something she was good at because she really, desperately wanted to tell Remus but instead she kept her mouth shut and simply laid down on top of her boy counterpart, her head on his chest and looking up every time and again.
"That was far to much information that I truly didn't need to know in this lifetime or the next, at least your happy, love. I would hate to see you depressed, you depressed only leads to me being depressed and if my skin grew any paler I would be in worse shape then Sir. Nickolas." The green eyed girl was far more then happy for him, in fact she was giddy, sure Ripley was still going to pull on her heartstrings but Remus was special to Lily in a way a lot of people weren't, in fact she was pretty sure she would kill for him, well not to be with him... since they could and would only ever be friends but if he asked, she would do it. Though he never would ask her such a thing... maybe that was why she was so attached to him.
"Well, what about me? It's really all the same thing. Potter annoying me, Potter stalking me, Potter driving me mad.." in more ways then one. Lily still smiled, maybe even blushing a bit, of course she wouldn't know but her face did grow hot from the subject. "Nothing has really changed." Still with the 'I am completely lying' smile. "Same old, same old. I really think your news is a lot more interesting then mine."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Aug 11, 2007 2:23:59 GMT -5
After thinking for a second, he figured that he was at least useful in one way to her, even if all he did was smother her with his arrogance and whatnot. Still he figured at this rate they'd be married by the time they retired, honestly. But Remus was just a friend up to a point, he didn't want to involve himself too much in his friends matters, especially when he was so close to Lily already. That would just be odd for some reason. It really was a nice day, the weather wasn't all that bad, as he lay comfortably on the grass with Lily on top of him. As suggestive as that sounded, it wasn't.
"Awe come on, you know you were curious." He said, it was a Sirius comment in the first place, but he had to say it, the moment had been too good to pass up. Remus smiled again, looking at the green eyes in front of him. "Well then since I'm happy, that means we have to get you all happy too." He said already pondering. Now that he thought about it, had James not been so in love with Lily, then there might have been something there. That is building on the small amount of flirting they already did and whatnot. If you hadn't noticed, she didn't exactly lay on guys to talk to them, well at least not others.
Remus listened as she ranted on about James, the usual basically, not a day went by without the routine of that. Though her last comment had his eyes on her again, her smile saying otherwise. "Really now? You know, you never were really good at lying." he said, a small smirk on his features, just asking her to really say what she had wanted to.
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Post by Lily Evans on Aug 11, 2007 3:16:14 GMT -5
Gawking at Remus she smacked his chest. "How-- you have been spending far to much time with Sirius, honestly, speaking to me like that... really I am no such girl to haggle over sexual situations with. You know I don't do well on that subject." Okay, so maybe he wasn't even talking about that... gah- she was just a hormonal filled basket case as it was. "I'm not against being happy, in fact that would be really nice. I like and miss happiness. This whole thing with James' dad... everything... I don't know if being quickly happy is going to work." Lily drew small circles on his chest, what if this had been something, if there was no James Potter. It was hard to think of a world without that, would she wonder about Remus for the rest of her life, thinking about what could have been if one person hadn't had his heart set on her for so long. Maybe even if Remus hadn't been his friend. Why was she even doing that to herself. Not only was Delilah a friend of hers but so was Ripley. Not to mention that she was in love with James Potter. She was such a confused girl. Constantly unsure of what she was doing until it was done.
Lily tried to make that smile fade out but it was awfully hard in fact she was laughing just trying to et rid of it. "I'm not lying... I am simply postponing the truth until a later date in which all with be reveled, no James and I aren't running off to get married or anything, really it's nothing, in fact it is so much of nothing your just making a big deal out of it." By the end she had regained some composure and actually sounded like the serious Lily Evans that she could be, the one that dealt with no problem to big or to small yet she was still thinking about that mountain of issues that she still had to deal with and soonish.
"So since we have that cleared up." Okay and she was dodging the subject. "We should talk about anything but life... maybe we should just lay around like vegetables, staring at the sky until we fall asleep... or something along those lines... it would be better then spending the day all copped up inside." Yeah anything would be better then that, in fact she was almost temped to find that trouble making Potter and have him take her somewhere interesting, she was sure he knew all the dirty little hiding places within the castle and outside of it.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Aug 11, 2007 3:43:07 GMT -5
Remus couldn't help but laugh a little at her response, but that was what he got for saying such things. "True, he was the one who told me that the tables were really sturdy." He added, probably not helping but not making it worse either. Just influence of his dear friends taking a part in him. "Yea, that really got him down." Hell, it even got Remus feeling all funny. Maybe it was just because James was like a brother to him, that those close just felt the effect of it. Well they were there for him and so was Lily, at least he figured as much. But if you took James out of the picture, in the sense that he had a different social circle, then the shy Remus wouldn't be here talking to Lily, probably watching from a distance for all but a mere moment.
She had one of those sheepish smiles that told you she was hiding something, especially from her laughing. "Well it can't be that much of nothing if you have to postpone it till later. " He reasoned or at least tried, different scenarios running through his mind. "So it involves James, huh?" He asked, more things running through his always thinking brain as he only slightly noticed her finger tracing figures on the light material covering his chest.
Remus just shrugged lightly, if she didn't want to talk about it then she didn't have to. The mention of sleep actually made him yawn, but that was normal especially right after the full moon. "That sounds like a plan, what vegetable are you going to be?" Just a random question because she had brought it up. The library usually sounded appealing but he had a slightly different perspective to see through now.
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